no face no case.

So many people use technology to input time from boredom on a daily basis , however do you not wonder if you are missing out on something? Life has a way of going faster the older you get, and in turn that definitely makes time seem more precious. Although, being in my thirties has shown me the many levels of growth of time, objects, and even hobbies. I still remember before phones became cordless,and the big nokia box flip phones that I swear were indestructible. Now it seems like people become famous by posting videos,and or thoughts on whatever social media platforms tend to be the most important at the time. Watching people say they want to socialize,and sit in a circle and then they play on their phones. Why not have a conversation? That also comes with the believe that being on a phone is part of the new social norms,and I'm not sure its so "normal". Some people believe in conspiracy,and just what if phones are actually distractions just to keep people from knowing what may actually be going on? Think about it so many Facebook, Snapchat, X, tick tok,and even here on blogger, I am also obviously a guilty party here, and yet again this makes me think what makes one want to be social vs. on social media platforms? I believe it's all of the social anxiety, PTSD, ADHD and everything else floating around as well because people are different and can always communicate differently. Some people may or may not feel comfortable saying hello at a coffee shop, but may like someone's picture online or comment on something and a beautiful friendship may bloom. 

I only believe this happens because I have ADHD, and have met quite a few people in a different manner as for friendships, and I met the human I intended on marrying online so the missing piece here is the word communication. This word is so important regardless of the how and reason being because not communicating makes people bitter against one another or could potentially destroy friendships and let's be honest no one wants that. Learning that each individual human makes communication differently makes life interesting to say the least because also learning that alot of people don't communicate in the same manner or have a different way of reaching out. It may be over a phone or text message these days, personal advice dont give important news via text it takes the sizzle away. I am working everyday on communication and how to better interact amongst humanity and blend in as what society says semi-normal is, it would be a complete lie if I tried to claim normalcy it is just not my style and has never honestly been part of my journey.

This could very well be the land of make believe re-mastered 4-d to make humanity experience life in different ways with different technology.  Like a science experiment, but humanity happens to be the actual hypothesis. Imagine man creating fire and being so exited the human accidentally burned the village or flip side they learned how to warm meat with the fire. This is The whole two sided coin situation,but humanity is one side and whatever higher being is the other.  When someone flips said coin, you hope the higher power has you protected no matter the outcome. The outcome could be something amazing, but it could also be a disappointment, disaster,joke. Im pretty sure this is what the saying ,"don't get your hopes up," comes from. Every human is hoping to do something amazing enough that that higher power looks out otherwise.... The hopes get up and there tends to be a crash because you expected something from the universe, and the universe doesn't understand positive and negative it just understands universal terminology. 

That terminology is what tends to be what humanity considered or comsiders normal. Normal,for the fact that the government finally made the announcement that aliens do exist... So that is a thought maybe four. Great thing about a different type of brain we are allowed to think about six impossible things before breakfast, and then the solution to the impossible problems before bedtime tends to make life interesting I would say. Now that is a thought worth a thousand thoughts, is life interesting or does your experience and how you live make it interesting? Now, ask yourself can you say hello to someone at the coffee shop now? Or is it another faceless video like?

I've seen some weird shit.

One went to wonderland one went to oz imagine the stories to be shared in between. I would imagine both have seen magical creatures that most people would not believe in. So I have a few stories I have scripted thinking of this.

Dorthoy to Alice: I was living in Kansas and a tornado took me to a weird land and my house landed on an evil witch but I got these badass magical shoes. Then Alice to Dorothy, girl I heard that I drank a weird drank and all the animals was talking to me and I had tea with a stranger..... Also did you know cats can disappear??? I wonder what was in that tea???

the things we get tied into

So beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, and each to their own. This is one form of art I feel like is not talked about shabari and learning new things with friends in a non sexual manner. This is one of my best friends, and during this time we were having some of the best time of our lives, and guys the arm you see is my partner who was also involved,and about ten others maybe.we were teaching one another new knots and just having a good time, most people think rope and automatically either go serial killer or straight to the bedroom in a sexual manner. This is what rope as art can cause, a good time wth silly friends, don't miss out because you sexualize almost everything, expand your horizons. See laughing,fun, silliness, friendship,and learning this is where I believe art can be here tied up into moments like the fabric just being webbed through for us. Moments can be what you make of them if you reach past the outside and see in. This is what being tied up should feel like an endless smile and laughs and the best time. Personally, I feel like that should be in or out the bedroom. Don't be ashamed of being fun with the people you trust the most, live in the moment of the fun being had,and don't worry about judgement because life is way to serious anyway. Also, notice something is always tying you up in a non fun way, work, stress, behind on bills, errands, adulting, and I can keep naming. So, in turn I believe you should be able to do something like this just to laugh and let off steam if nothing else. However, if you aren't about the rope life find something that makes you silly with a group of friends and get the dopamine,get tied up in something wonderful about life.

loving hard

Is it wrong to want someone to love as hard as you? 

Is it ok to want someone to chase you?

Can you forgive someone after they have hurt you?

What is the best way to handle it?

Why me?

All of these questions run through my head after working on any relationship, and it not turning out the way you planned. I have learned real love is very hard work because people are human, and humans are all flawed, and what I am meaning is all humans have some imperfection about them. Mouth breather, snoring, you collect something weird, your messy your partner isn't; these are all things that make us human and humans are all not perfect. I have learned neither is love because humans are perfect love can't be perfect, it can't be the glass slipper in Cinderella or the knights storming the castle to slay the dragon, its work and it's not easy to learn to love someone for who they are not their potential, to want to work through things as a team instead of going behind one anothers back to be able to honour one another not only in "title," but with the respect of the relationship itself. To be honest with one another, to work, build together, it sounds like a construction job, and it is. You have to have a stable foundation for that reason then you build the foundation with the other aspects which makes your castle indestructible together and that is the actual romantic idea of love. Forgiveness is part of love and there will be a lot of it but ask yourself is this going to effect us now, a year from now, five years from now, or is it something that I absolutely can not get over? Also, you have to account that you are more refined than the average person and you are forgiving for you not them. This is work I think lately the shadow work that comes with figuring out what kind of love you want and what kind of life you build yourself with what kind of love in it. I handle everything as it comes at me not everyone is the same, the situation, the variables all of the factors I face my problems head on as I have to. I have learned that loving unconditionally comes with alot of work and forgiveness and patience you probably think you don't have. What time is it inside of yourself when you say this is enough and I know what I want and go for it without messing up. You don't this is the whole concept of love is blind your trust that the person who you decide to trust yourself with is going to catch you, to keep you from hitting the ground or hurting you, but this is not always the case. This learning to forgive thing is how people make it fifty years plus and how people stay madly in love with one another. I just want a partnership with someone who understands that love will be work and wants to work together. Doesn't run when things get tough and actually works with you not against you. I crave only what I give, and I realized I crave it because I give it without thought without holding myself back. I just want someone who does the same thing without demanding my playbook plays without earning them. I am simply complex in the way of I do want someone to hold me as accountable as I hold them. I don't yell at people im consistent with my actions. My actual actions and words match where is the equality in the relationship, and this is what I mean by equal. I have longed for the love that is equal and I'm slowly coming to and vibrating on the proper waves. I love hard and I work hard on the things I care about without hoping that I get something in return this time im only giving what I receive. I will not lower myself but vibrate higher to bring those who are equal to my side. Its slowly coming into place and I'm learning to forgive and work and not be afraid to give myself to the right human. I feel love and light and being ok with the challenges is what makes us human. I know that my human exist and im just waiting for her to step up and see what happens. 

Is it destiny

 How to precive destiny vs fate, its weird this becomes the topic of thought and of talk within my morning reading. I feel like destiny lead me where i am today, but fate is the paths to create your own destiny. Creating ones destiny is like carving into a piece of wood trying to figure out the perfect smoothness before sanding it down. Does destiny make us blind to the paths of destiny or does destiny control the paths of fate? Its a huge downstream of big thoughts vs hopes and dreams. We all hope that we have a destiny pre determined by the gods saught out to be the "perfect path." Im slowly learning that there is no perfect path all paths lead to a differnet kind of struggle or problem you must solve to get to the next checkpoint in what we call our written paths. What path determines our destiny or fate for that reason? This is the million dollar question I know more than me has asked nyself. It is a simple but complicated answer, you can not change the past but the future can be forever changing depending on the path you take or in dumb terms your choices. Life when they say can be what you make it they mean just that make good choices have a good life make bad choices... I am sure you can understand from there although they do say people change. Absolutely, I agree, but check this logic it is because they choose to change and make better choices. See logic can be a friend when used for a more clear perception of something. Someone once told me perception is reality just as much as words are magick. So the future can be whatever you want it. Let us just hope there are more seeds than weeds out there who understand life can be a challenge but it can also be very rewarding.