lessons

Being in a relationship with someone who thrives on not having priorities situated, distorts truth and seeks to dismantle your sense of self will eventually leave you questioning reality itself, unknowingly guiding you into a constant state of panic within ever simple interaction, or becoming bitter to the existence of life itself. So, the question screams to be asked, just why would the universe allow anyone to enter our lives that he knows is a unprioitized person? Why would the universe permit us to endure a constant state of trying to be good enough for the approval of one who constantly gaslights, seeks attention in ever venue, even if it isn’t theirs.  them as the victim of a mistake that was really just a pattern of purposeful defiance in order to get their way, and when they finally disrupt the fabric of important relationships, will go onto blame it one one mistake, when it has really just been their life’s quest to be seen and heard, and not serve and love. So why would the universe allow such a thing? The answer, although very uncomfortable is deeply rooted in the very nature of spiritual growth. The universe never promised a life of ease, but did promise that every hardship would serve a purpose. Just as fire refines gold, suffering refines the soul. We were not given this opportunity to just drift through life unchallenged, but we’re created and given the opportunities to grow, and true transformation requires difficulties that demand suffering. It demands that we confront darkness, and not to justify it in making it work because another person is this or that to us, no matter the position they hold in our lives, so as not to consume us, but that we may rise above it with a greater awareness of our worth into a deeper faith that cannot be shaken. It is no accident that you find yourself in such a battle. It is a call to arms by establishing boundaries where none existed, to stand firm in truth where lies have flourished, going onto build up your faith that will serve you for the rest of your life. So what will you do with the lesson? Continue a life of brokenness, constantly living in fear with a defeated spirit, or to grow beyond the control that only cares to use you for an unholy purpose. Some pagans masquerade as people of light, but to know the difference is to know the universe and God's first, seek them first, and they will pull away the veil they are hiding behind. But for the ones who deem that relationship more important than them, they will give you the space to see, until you come into the realization of the truly demonic force in their life. Control people will leave you bitter and broken, essentially robbing you of your calling, every trying to make their deceptive darkness work in your life. Enough already, decide in whom you’re going to give yourself to, one leads to uncertainty around every corner with fake apologies over and over to keep you bound, and the other leads to life. Pray, be patient, and lean on the Gods, in their good timing you will know when and how to set boundaries that just may lead them into true repentance. Being an enabler for their behavior will destroy both you and them.